Is the Grass Always Greener?

Who knows what life will throw at you? You get married and think you will be married forever.... 19 years and 4 kids later.... not so much. Midlife crisis? Who knows. I know it has been over a year since the divorce and life has been more hard than it has been easy, yet i have never once regretted leaving my ex. We don't fight..much. We relatively get along... yet we grew apart. I wasn't happy anymore. I may be living paycheck to paycheck and not a month goes by where i don't know how I will cover the next bill, pay for that next thing that comes up with the kids, or fill the next tank of gas, yet i have never been happier. The relationships with men? Those i will have separate blog posts as we make our way through the past year and beyond. But never-the-less, life will throw curve balls. You know what? Those curve balls are making me a stronger, more independent woman. I have learned so much about myself over the last year. Some things i found about myself I am not proud of, other things i have learned I am really proud of. As anyone going through a divorce and being thrown out to the wolves; life will never be the same. But, when this happens to you, look at it as an adventure. Its a new life, don't look back and regret.. look forward and see what can be. Life is what you make of it. Make it what you want. You never are to old to start something new.... the only person holding yourself back is you!