2009

December 12th of 2008 was the day I met the con artist. A man I wished badly I had never met. One year later, that same date would be the date I broke up with a man who I had been with 8 months.

I am thinking I may need to avoid men on that date in the future. But, then again, December 12 of 2009 I met a man who has become a great friend. Who knows, is there anything to a date?

2009 came and went. I had a lot of horrible things happen, but a lot tremendous things happened as well. The man I fell in love with and broke up with, I will never regret the time I spent with him. I loved every minute. The con man… I regret that. I regret him. The "May" thing, I learned so much from and am now a completely different person than I ever was. I do wish that it hadn't happened, but you cannot change the past. I have grown up so much during the past year. I would not change the lessons I learned for anything in the world. The things I wished never happened probably made me a stronger woman. Don't get me wrong, I do get scared at times, but, I continue on and remember what I have been through, and yet I still survived. Amazing, really. I believe everyone can probably make the same statement. Would you really change what has happened to you in the past? Those events which took place in your life, good or bad, are what made you who you are today. For better or for worse.

I have failed so much during the past year. But after each failure, I pick myself up, brush myself off and start all over again. The pastor at my church made this statement this past weekend. "Risk boldly, fail spectacularly, and succeed beyond your wildest dreams!" I love that statement. Anyone who knows me well, knows I risk boldly, they also know no one can fail as spectacularly as I. But, I WILL succeed beyond my wildest dreams. I keep trying, I keep failing, but all the failures will lead to my success. Guaranteed!

Until next time…….